Is there a Pill for Pessimism?...

Media Education... Our Love/Hate Relationship with Sex and Violence

2010-09-04T21:39:00.003-04:00

I saw Machete last night. (For those of you not familiar you can check out the link (as long as it is active)).

Today I watched a documentary; Inside Deep Throat. (Once again a link for those unfamiliar with either the documentary of the movie that is it documenting.)

I am constantly in awe of the country's/our culture's inability to reconcile rational and objective thoughts dealing with Sex and Violence and what impacts the two truly have on our day to day lives.

Violence: We've all watched violence in movies. Slapstick violence (Laurel and Hardy movies), gruesome violence (the Saw Movies), thriller violence (Psycho) and any other movies in between. We are exposed to violence everywhere. The point is that it is not hard to find yourself watching a movie with explicit violence or playing a video game that incorporated violence against inanimate objects, alien races, altered humans (ie Zombies) and even other humans as well. It is not at all difficult to gain access to media that includes violence and although we preach to children that violence against your fellow man is looked down upon, we still turn on the TV, sit our kids in front of it and let their brains melt to the titillating story telling phenomena that are the Powerpuff Girls, Samurai Jack and Invader Zim. (At this point I would like to state that I have enjoyed and still enjoy all these shows and think that they are beautifully and artistically done... the artistry is not in question here.)

There is countless research out there that suggests and supports that violence in cartoons, movies and video games (as well as immediate environment) causes mental and social problems for children (and even adults). However despite the mounting evidence that suggests that violence in media is in fact bad for you, there is little to no violence education and more importantly little to no violence censorship when it comes to children's programing. Adults (as in parents and legal guardians) are strongly encouraged to teach their kids about NOT practicing violent acts and the difference between media and real violence.

Sex: Yes, we all watch sex scenes. More often than not there are sex scenes in movies and the envelope for what is appropriate on the screen is constantly being pushed. We've gone from seeing Lucy and Desi sleeping in separate beds to Keanu Reeves and Carrie-Anne Moss in a Matrix sex scene. We are repeatedly bombarded with sexually explicit ads on giant billboards and in magazines. We have stars who are barely out of their diapers represented in sexually suggestive ways. We even have little children dressing up as beauty queens and walking around on the cat walk in bikinis with pound of makeup on.

HOWEVER, despite all the sexually explicit and suggestive material out there, sexual content in mainstream movies cannot come close to the severity of the type of violence we see in movies. AND sexual education and freedom to openly speak about sex is taboo. Sex education in this country is at times controversial. Many places teach sexual abstinence in schools and fight more progressive views/ideas such as handing out condoms to school children. Parents do not feel comfortable when it comes to talking to their kids about sex (yet are more than willing to play a round of Splinter Cell with their already sexually active yet unprotected children).

Getting your hands on media containing "mature sexual content" requires you to go to a specialty shop. No specialty shop exists for violence (unless you count gun stores). Meanwhile you can own a gun at about age 12 yet you cannot own a porno mag or see live nude girls till you are 18.

Most sexuality in movies is surrounded in violence (such as sex before or after dangerous and violent situations, forced sex and anything and everything in between). We are subjected to violent language almost freely but sexuality explicit language is minimal at best.

To me it is all ironic, sad and a bit scary that we chose to focus on such terrible parts of human nature and emotion and fail to acknowledge and celebrate something as beautiful as sex and sexual relationships and intimacy. I am taken aback at how we chose to indulge in all the ugliness that we are capable of and very little in all the beauty.

So whats the point? Well I don't know if I have a specific point. Maybe I am just making observations on something that I find alarming and intriguing. Perhaps I am recollecting all the times I've heard, "Make love not war" and remarking (mainly to myself) how that message never really stuck. How a love revolution failed and has succumbed to violence and greed. Or perhaps I am trying to say that you should see both those movies for various reasons and perhaps make your own observation about the irony in our society.

A Seriously Delayed Un-update

2010-07-21T13:00:00.002-04:00

Its been a while since I've done anything substantial in my world of art making. Quite honestly, between the thesis project and my horrible job job, my photographic freethinking creativity has been somewhat drained. I pick up my camera and dread what I may, or may not photograph.

Recently I had a conversation with someone new to photography about the practice. He asked me how one becomes a photographer. The best answer I could come up with is this: Everyone has the ability to look at the world and find something beautiful/memorable/meaningful. They associate the experience before them with an emotion or a sentimental point in time so they pick up their camera and snap a picture and when it comes out they look at it and are disappointed that the sunset does not look as impressive as they remember in their head. Obviously the camera is blamed for the lack of sentimental image reproduction. Cameras are just there as a tool. Like a hammer, cameras by themselves, are objects. What a photographer does is uses the camera tool as a way to elicit emotional and mental responses.

I think what has happened to me, is that I, at this point, am no longer able to use the camera as an effective tool for the purpose of story telling. I am using it to create photographic visions for other people's ideas and not so much my own. I am craving the free flow of thought as expressed through my favorite medium, but at the moment it does not come.

What I am attempting instead, is a body of Assemblage works that closely tie in with my recent experiences in life (mainly the dating scene). I am hoping to come up with 24-36 pieces by the end of the year and I hope that they inspire someone's imagination.

So, in conclusion, I am alive, I am thinking about art and I am longing for the day I can once again freely and confidently express myself through photography. In the meanwhile, I am keeping busy.

A View from a Parking Lot

2009-11-05T14:54:00.007-05:00

Here are some images from my show.

It was a learning experience and has me thinking even more about new uses for new spaces.

Here are some views for everyone to enjoy.

To Loath Thyself

2009-10-08T22:26:00.004-04:00

Is it possible to make work that you hate and still make good work? Hate is as strong of an emotion as love.

I recall making work that angered a lot of people. I particularly hated the work. Not so much the final piece but the whole process of coming up with the idea and creating it. However I loved that the work elicited such strong emotions from the audience. A few people walked away from it understanding the goal and appreciating that I just put then through 8 minutes or so of hell. It was a mad science experiment influenced by my attitude towards some pretty insane circumstances. I was hateful and angry and I created work that people hated and were angry over. I would most certainly do it again.

That experience, however, is not what I am referring to here. What I am interested in is if a work can me successfully made but with the artist hating the out come?

I find myself going back to work I did in the past and absolutely saying to myself "what was I thinking, I HATE this thing" while simultaneously people coming up to me saying that they love what I did. Its a compliment for sure and I appreciate the insight my audience has. I just feel a strong aversion to my own work.

Perhaps that is precisely what keeps me making more and new work. I try to smooth out and rethink ideas and executions of work. Could my aversion of my own work be the thing that keeps me going and striving to go farther and continue on the path of art making? Time will tell.

Good-Bye Irving Penn

2009-10-07T23:14:00.002-04:00

Irving Penn died today. He was 92 years old.

I don't know what else to say about a great photographer who created a lot of amazing work, that has not already been said by folks who are a lot more qualified to write and speak about him. I think his work and the reputation of his kindness speaks for itself. I know that if I were even a tenth of a percent as talented as Penn was, I'd be happy.

So, enjoy the following image by the late and great, Irving Penn, a fellow Gemini.

ITS UPDATE TIME!!!

2009-09-22T23:30:00.002-04:00

Thesis: I have a personal deadline of September 25 for my second draft. I feel like I am almost there just the little nitty gritty work is eating up all my time.

Also, am I going with a hard cover or a soft cover? No idea yet. Nor do I know what I want to write for my artist statement.

Deep breathes. The finish line is almost in sight.

"Brave, brave Sir Robin. He bravely ran away."

Mental Notes

2009-08-29T00:21:00.002-04:00

1> Be more positive. (Maybe I need to say that over and over constantly until I believe it).

2> Post more of my own images...

3> Make more images (that are not for, or having to do with, work).

4> Find more time to read, see, observe. I have been very lax in that regard. BIG NO NO!

5> Be more positive!

Book Layout Experience...

2009-08-26T00:20:00.001-04:00

Place, place, place, place, place, DELETE, DELETE, DELETE, place, place, place, place, DELETE, DELETE, DELETE, DELETE.

I Think I Am Gonna Be Sick!

2009-08-24T23:02:00.002-04:00

What do you say to a person that you've admired for so long when you first meet them?

I dunno but lets see if I don't vomit all over myself or say something completely offhand, unrelated and juvenile.

Meanwhile I could be setting myself up for disaster for no reason. He might not be coming up anyway and I may not meet him even if he does.

A Pledge Being Realized

2009-08-22T23:50:00.003-04:00

On April 27, 2008 I made a post, a pledge, to myself that I would exhibit my work more often and at more places.

To my surprise and joy that is exactly what I have been doing this year. So far my CV is coming along.

I am not claiming that I've taken every opportunity (I have to work on that confidence thing I've been hearing about). However, I have been doing my best to take as many opportunities as I am comfortable with.

Here is to making the rest of 2009 a successful time for my budding art (and thing) making career.

I'd let you pat me on the back but my hand is in the way.

2009-08-21T02:54:00.003-04:00

SMAC (Schweinfurth Memorial Art Center) in Auburn, NY will be featuring some of my little creations in their gallery. Here is the link to their website:

http://www.schweinfurthartcenter.org/exhibits/2009/CollageAssemblage2009.html

If you are in the area (and more importantly, if you are actually reading this) stop on by. I don't bite so if you wanna say hello I am all for that. Artist reception is August 30th.

Now I go to do a little happy dance.

News Flash

2009-08-20T02:33:00.003-04:00

After trying to pretend that it wasn't a problem, I have finally started to update my website. Its coming along well, especially if I consider that it used to look like and how it had no function. Lets just hope this new motivation lasts well into the middle of October.

Anyway, check out the website if you like...

www.ronagelman.com

Not Just an After Thought

2009-08-15T03:06:00.005-04:00

Here are a few sample images from the thesis project: Since these were made I decided on a black background. But the general idea is the same.

Bumping Elbows

2009-08-15T02:58:00.003-04:00

Its really hard to hob nob with big time artists or attend the "right" art shows when they happen to take place during the times I work.

I've made peace with that and I wish others in the art community would make peace with that too.

I'll just have to find different ways to get people's attention. I'm not worried!

Now, off to ignore my circadian rhythm.

Linearity

2009-08-12T20:42:00.004-04:00

"Success is not something we reach at a linear point."

The western world (or someone/ something) has drilled it into our heads that success is measured in a linear manner. Point A will lead you to point B which will finally lead you somewhere down the road to the Gold Mine of LINEAR SUCCESS.

You apply to a college of choice, get an education, you find the perfect internship which leads into a promising young career, followed possibly by yet another degree or two, then you are on your merry way to a "career" with the perfect salary, prestige and perhaps even fame.

WHATEVER!

So the other day when I saved a goose from oncoming traffic (true story) or the time I volunteered to teach photography to kids, neither of those things were successes? Did they make no difference because I gained no monetary rewards from the deed? Or is it because I couldn't put it on my ever evolving resume/CV?

What is a career? What is success?

My passion in life is observing, recording and cataloging the human experience through a long time under appreciated discipline known as ART. My passion will probably not lead me to the holy grail of career success, but I assure you (and myself) that I will not feel like I have not been successful. With every click of the shutter button and every stroke of a paint brush, I will be successful just for having created something out of nothing (well not really out of nothing but you get the point).

So bring it on LINEAR SUCCESS! I refuse to let you drag me down into feelings of inadequacy.

Beginning of the End; The Thesis Debacle

2009-08-11T22:47:00.003-04:00

In my mind I am ready to be done with this whole thing. This thesis thing. It makes me physically ill to still talk/write/think about it and yet there are miles and miles to go before I can rest.

In my mind everything is already laid out. Everything is edited, color corrected, marked and printed and ready to go.

So how come nothing is done yet?

I am mentally exhausted by the whole project and I won't lie when I say that I procrastinated way longer than I should have.

The main problem is that my attention span is not good for such a serious project. Its too much focused thinking for someone that enjoys working on multiple projects all the time.

I have about 20 other ideas just lingering up in the ol' attic and they are all in some hurry to get out.

BREATH!

One step at a time I suppose.

My goal is last Friday in September although first Friday of October doesn't sound that bad either.

Well, back to the grid I suppose. 5 days and I want to be done with shooting. Sleep be damned.

Crossing my fingers!

Trapped on Glass

2009-08-06T03:13:00.004-04:00

From last semester's Historic Processes Class with Jenn Libby at the Visual Studies Workshop.

Great instructor, great class.

Enjoy!

Overdue and Under Done

2009-08-05T14:58:00.002-04:00

Summer is proving to be busier that I had anticipated or really desired it to be. July was pretty much a bust. Had to run down to NYC to see relatives from abroad and then the following week I was once again volunteering out at PEEC as a photo instructor.

The PEEC experience was weird again. Its really hard to get kids (who's brains are on summer break) to get rolling on any sort of project. The first 2-3 days are spent convincing them that you actually do know what you are doing and you are not just playing some trick on them (or trying to make them do 'HOMEWORK'). By the time day 4 or 5 rolls around they finally like you and beg you not to leave, just as you are ready to pack up your gear and head home.

The director at PEEC has asked me to come back next year to teach either for the entire summer or to come in and teach the older kids, seeing as how A) I am cool & B) most of the kids I've taught the last 2 years will be aged out of the younger group by next year. I said I will consider it. Although really I hope to be employed full time by then. (Someone has to start paying off her college debt.)

THESIS:

SO some of you (I am talking about all my imaginary friends and readers) are probably wondering how the thesis is going, seeing as how I planned on showing in September. Well things are really behind. I wish I was more on the ball but once again life got in the way. I am planing to motivate myself to get things going here and at least get some proofs going. Maybe I should put it in writing?!?!?!

OTHER ART STUFF:

I got accepted to a show in Auburn, NY to display some of my creepy little boxes (I will attempt to post some pics up one of these days). I hope they sell.

I have also been showing off some other work at some group shows around town. Even though the support from gallery staff has been encouraging, so far the public has not picked up on what it is I am trying to do. Maybe its because I don't really have a clear vision either.

I hope that once the thesis is over, I can start working on other things that have been festering in my brain. Here is to creativity and its free flow. (I loath artist blocks).

Thats all for now!

Hoping to follow this up with some sample images soon. Keep your fingers crossed!

Sugar Coma

2009-03-18T21:10:00.003-04:00

Some new work that will surely keep me up at night... until the sugar runs out.

Enjoy

...In Addition

2009-02-06T21:45:00.000-05:00

Not knowing your own self worth, totally and utterly stinks.

Hmmm....

2009-02-06T21:37:00.001-05:00

Overlooked again?

Why am I not surprised?

This is starting to look like the story of my life.

Hungry Like the Wolf

2008-11-04T15:49:00.006-05:00

Thanks to the geniuses behind the video game Rock Band (and the new expansion Rock Band 2), I once again find myself getting stuck on songs that I have no business remembering. One in particular is that all time favorite of yours and mine; Duran Duran's Hungry Like the Wolf.

So, since my mind is now plagued with this 80's music nightmare, I figured I'd leave you with some images loosely associated with the subject matter: FOOD.

I find that the shape, color and texture of food makes for interesting possibilities for unique compositions. A large part of my undergrad work involved food (and its ability to decompose). It was a very smelly endeavor but luckily I had some very awesome professors that supported the stink-fest.

Here is Irving Penn's take on FOOD

the Enchanting Work of Peter Gasser

2008-11-02T20:43:00.005-05:00

I've always enjoyed the works of creative minds (and eyes) of image makers such as Edward Curtis, who dedicate(d) their lives to capturing the world's diverse cultures, customs and people. With that in mind I would like to share some works by Peter Gasser; a photographer that I hope to learn more about.

Focus Please

2008-11-02T20:38:00.004-05:00

When blurry photos happen to beautiful people.

I am observing a recent trend of bad photographers trying to pass off blurry pictures as "SOFT FOCUS" photos.

There is a distinct difference between the two.

Here is an example of a blurry photo that some photographer is trying to pass of as a work of a professional.

Please beware.

It Goes

2008-10-28T20:54:00.004-04:00

Met with my AWESOME advisor today (you know who you are). I am super pumped about this new idea for a final thesis. Hopefully I'll be sticking to my guns, although I see very little reason for why I would change my mind.

I rather not divulge much before I really take a deeper plunge into this project, but I will say that it is going to deal with archives, curation, use of digital media, rethinking of the term "tactile" and the new role of a user/viewer interface in a gallery setting... among other things. (I think that was a terrible sentence structure.)

Right now there are a lot of pragmatic issues with the project that need to be smoothed and figured out. I never thought I would be in the position to say this, BUT, it seems that technology is turning out to be very limiting in this case. I am definitely out of my league and treading on unfamiliar ground.

First there is a question of whether or not I can find the right type of technology to meet with my projecting and display needs. If I had an endless supply of money (which I do not) I would opt for the best of the best, however, at this time I need to concentrate on how to use the funds I have available to create something that is close to my vision.

Problem number two is either finding a way to program or finding a person who is experienced in the art of programing. My idea may seem simple (ish) but putting it all into a fully functional program is somewhat a problem for me.

The one part that is truly a joy in this project, is getting to appreciate the archive that I am working with. I have to constantly remind myself to keep on track as I am catching myself being mesmerized by some of these images. The issue, at this point, is not deciding on which images to include as a good representation of the archive, but which images must I exclude, as slowly I fall in love with all of them.

As the weeks roll on, I promise to be a lot less cryptic as to what my project idea is. Also, I invite anyone and everyone to comment and/or suggest any reading and/or visual references that may be relevant.

And so it goes.

(Oh man!... can my sentence and paragraph structure be any worse? My high school English teacher is crying right now and I bet she has no idea why... this is why!!!)

Image by Jill Greenberg from her "End Time" exhibition. There is definitely something about the colors in her work that I find very appealing.

How to Spell MANNEQUIN

2008-10-16T21:43:00.004-04:00

Random Fact About Me:

I used to dress mannequins for a living. I don't mean those terrible styrofoam analogous representations of human beings that you find in a Macy's or Sears window. I am talking about stunning, almost human like mannequins, with beautifully rich glass eyes and flawless synthetic skin. The kind you see in a Bloomingdale window during the holiday season. (I assure you that the costumes I had for my mannequins do not even compare to the extravagance of Bloomy's.)

I have no idea what it is about mannequins and dolls that draws me to them. Maybe its the thousands of years of human history associated with them. Perhaps is the childhood fantasy of wanting your doll to come to life, that later turns into an adult nightmare. I was/am so intrigued by them that I started making my own miniature versions with polymer. Go figure.

Anyway, here are some random images, that I googled, of mannequins and things associated with jointed dolls. Perhaps you too will get some form of inspiration from them.

Enjoy

Trapped in a Fairy Tale

2008-10-16T00:37:00.006-04:00

To make good on my previous post (this blog needs some colorful variety) I have picked the first set of images that at one point or another (and possibly even now) have captured my attention.

The following images by various artists have brought to life the fairy tale world that I have imagined. The first time I laid eyes on these images I was captivated and spell bound by their wonderful use of composition and color.

Image by Dave Lachapelle

Image by Tim Walker

Image by Annie Leibowitz

Images that Inspire

2008-10-14T15:27:00.002-04:00

Many artists can place themselves and their creative development based on who they admire(d) and who they aspire(d) to be like at some point in their careers. They can trace back their progress through who and what they were looking at, at a particular moment in their creative development.

As for me, I have always been more inspired by images rather than image makers. An Edward Weston pepper here, an Edward Curtis there, and a William Claxton (RIP) somewhere in between. If I enjoyed a few images by a particular image maker I would go on to delve deeper into what else the creator had to offer. Many times, however, the images that inspired me were from no name photographer or even photo enthusiasts. Magazines, drawings, sketches and even literature, have all been instrumental in my development as an image creator and an image appreciator.

So, what I am attempting to say in 250 words or less (a poor attempt, I know) is that I will attempt to feature various images in the contents of this blog. Perhaps, if you are reading this, the images will inspire you, as they have/are me. Or, (and I shudder at this thought altogether), the images that I post, will help you to understand me better.

Whenever possible, I will attempt to provide the name and a link to the artist whose images I use.

Happy Observing.

A Little Town with a lot of ART...

2008-10-06T15:05:00.004-04:00

Ever end up in Binghamton?

While living in Upstate NY (thats the real upstate and not the catskills as some of you NY City dwellers seem to think), I would travel via Grey Hound Bus Lines. Like clockwork the buses would always stop over in Binghamton NY for a layover. I was never impressed by the great pot hole parking lot near an old brick building, that the city of Binghamton calls its bus station. I was even less impressed when the bus would take the "long way" around the "city" to get back to the road to civilization. It was then that I swore to myself that I would never end up in that little hole in the wall town. Little did I know that, not 2 months after graduating from SUNY Oswego, I would spend 6 months living in this little town. It was probably the best 6 months of my life.

Binghamton is nothing exceptional to look at. From what I recall, their great claim to fame was a bunch of old carousels and IBM. However, the people there were just wonderful. If you made the effort to be nice, the town would welcome you with its arms wide open. I always remark that if the town had a better economy, I would not at all mind living there. Binghamton is close enough to the city (NY City that is) and is far away enough to be considered the middle of nowhere. And, most important of all, if you are a SciFi fan, it is also the home to Rod Sterling (Mr. Twilight Zone himself) and his weird little museum.

I think I digress.

I was in Binghamton this past weekend, attending the art opening of my friend Mike Leonard (check out his stuff here www.michaelleonardphoto.com ) at the Brunelli Fine Arts Gallery (check them out here www.anthonybrunelli.com) and I was astonished at the crowd that showed up. At one point I felt very claustrophobic.

As I walked outside, down State St. I was flabbergasted at the number of people that made it out to the first friday events. It was incredible.

So, in a long and winded way I suppose what I am trying to say is a few things;

1. You never know where you are going to end up so never say never.
2. Binghamton is a great little town with a lot of art and even more very pleasant people.
3. I talk too much and should learn to keep things to a 250 word max. story.

So, if you are ever in the neighborhood, check out Binghamton's Art scene and stop by the fine folks at the Brunelli Art Gallery.

Now, stop wasting your time reading this and go do something useful with your life. :D

Insides on the Outside

2008-09-17T00:43:00.003-04:00

Getting back to photographing my garbage. I guess you love what you love.

Was just reading an article about history's great creative people. The gist of the article was that creative people notice things that the average person takes for granted, researching them to the point of obsession.

Anyway, here is my mental and artistic disease...

Art Meets the Environment

2008-07-26T15:19:00.004-04:00

Just got done teaching a week long photo workshop to nature camp kids.

It is very hard to work with people that are not motivated by new experiences and do not facilitate a friendly environment. But with all that rubbish aside the week was wonderfully enjoyable.

Working with kids is great. (Remember, working with kids is not having kids. Working with kids means that at the end of the day their is a return policy).

Children's ability to grasp on to complicated concepts is astonishing, especially when they are out performing their much older instructors and counselors.

Kids can experiment without inhibition. They do not have a sense of propriety as to how something is supposed to look or function. They are in the perfect state of mind in which they can be influenced either to see things in everyday light or to see things in a way that no one else usually sees.

At first it was hard(ish) to convince them to photograph objects and subjects from different and unconventional angles. However, within an hour they were able to take photos of flowers by sitting under them, or to take pictures of trees while climbing them.

Their projects came out splendidly (and yes, lots of mess was involved). We created wonderful book style photo journals and also put together 3D picture dioramas.

Here are some of the results:

TV: Everyone's Trusted Brain Wash

2008-07-17T12:00:00.003-04:00

After thinking about it for a long time I have come to a conclusion. Without a shadow of a doubt, media literacy educators MUST watch TV (even if it is sparingly) in order to connect to the kids they are teaching. Anyone under the impression that they can teach media literacy without having watched Flavor of Love, Tila Tequila or Skunk Fu, is in for a rude awakening.

Its nothing to be proud of but general audiences are watching absolute garbage on TV. I know I do. Its not because some of these shows are mentally stimulating; quite the opposite. However, if you are a kid with two working parents, coming home from school, (or an adult avoiding work on a thesis project), more likely than not you will be flipping on that TV to watch your share of bad, mind numbing, reality bending TV. And as we all know TV influences your everyday thinking activities more than you know, especially because you are not aware of it.

As media literacy educators, we have to be familiar with what's on the good old tube. How else can we talk about it and teach about it in a more informed manner? If, as a media educator we are unaware of shows like Mind of Mencia or the Hills, then we cannot connect with the kids we are "educating". We become unaware of their influences and thought processes because we are disconnected from their everyday lives and relationships with their good friend TV.

Just as a parent should know what type of kids their child is involved with in order to attempt to prevent bad behavior (ie: substance use, etc), so too as media educators, must we be aware of what our kids are watching, who they are listening to and what is influencing them.

So, spare a few unused brain cells and watch some brain damaging TV. You never know when you are going to need some of the useless and mind numbing information that TV has to offer.

4 hours a day, keep brain cells away!

Kitchen Clarity

2008-07-15T11:39:00.002-04:00

As the morning progressed (much to my chagrin), this jewel presented itself, at 11am, amidst frantic re-photographing of artwork.

Calm and tranquil, it will never present itself in such a manner, ever again. To demystify its existence, this picture will forever expose its vulnerable self.

(Give me a break, its been a long night. Just look at the picture!)

In the Works

2008-07-01T17:31:00.008-04:00

Noticing small, everyday things opens my eyes to the rest of the world.

Lately, I found that I focus on objects that I blindly interact with every day without the slightest appreciation for their existence and construction. Subtle angels, curves and details, paired with natural light emanating from/through other everyday objects transforms subtle things into items of beauty.

Here's my example:

Getting to Know Boris

2008-06-24T16:12:00.005-04:00

Recently, horror movies came up in a conversation I was having with someone (or perhaps I was only talking to myself). Anyway, I recalled making an earlier post about my favorite blood sucker, Bella Lugosi, who actually not only played the infamous Count Dracula (read it with the accent, its that much more fun). Bella also played the Frankenstein Monster in Frankenstein Meets the Wolf Man, which leads me to a wonderful segue to my next, long forgotten star...

...Boris Karloff

He played the famous Frankenstein Monster and the Mummy (before the Brandon Fraser and Hollywood Special Digital Effects). Also, the great Karloff appeared in a Christmas/Seuss classic; How the Grinch Stole X-Mas. Karloff was the voice of the narrator. Thats pretty impressive for a man who grew up with a stutter and a lisp.

Karloff once got advice from the equally famous and now forgotten Lon Chaney (no relation to Dick) aka Man of a Thousand Faces, who told Boris, to find out what no one else was doing and becoming the best at doing it. I guess that advice paid off.

And that concludes todays edition of MEET YOUR FORGOTTEN SCREEN STAR OF YESTER YEAR!

ALSO: if you have a few seconds for internet browsing, check out the intro to the official Bela Lugosi website... its befitting of the Dark Evil One.

http://www.belalugosi.com/

Enjoy!

Something to Look at

2008-06-04T01:50:00.002-04:00

From my recent trip to NYC.

Reminds me of my earlier work with color photograms.

Enjoy!

How 'Bout a DUH Moment?

2008-06-04T01:40:00.002-04:00

If I want people to think that what I say/write is intelligent, I should first learn how to spell.

In retaliation to that statement and in contrast to the top self-deprecating suggestion, I have to mention my favorite cerebral linguist/philosopher/genius Noam Chomsky who stated/states that the purpose of language is communication and as long as the meaning is clear, the path to that meaning is irrelevant.

On a related note, I sure wish I knew Noam and his theories back in grade school. It would have made my argument that spelling is irrelevant, that much better and who knows, perhaps I would have gotten better grades in spelling.

Save the Eyes, Starve the Brain

2008-05-29T01:42:00.004-04:00

I have a problem with myself; I don't read as much as I used to or as I should. In addition I don't read education/career related books.

I used to read a lot. Mainly it was classic literature. Early on I discovered worlds, theories and philosophies that were foreign to most of my peers. It was a lonely time but an exciting time.

My eyes started hurting due to reading via candle light/flash light (some books were read in secret). My ability to read a book in one sitting slowly diminished. Soon, it took me weeks to read a novel.

I don't think I am currently reading as much as I should and more importantly I am not reading materials that relate to my current field of study. This too must be remedied.

Perhaps this summer I will attempt to get through 30 or so novels of interest. The trick will be to pick through literary works that help with final thesis project ideas.

Someone recently said to me that their #1 rule is not to hope. In that spirit I will not hope to read these book but I will strive to read the 30 that I put before me.

On another note, improving my writing skills comes next!

TV Will Rot Your Brain

2008-05-27T14:46:00.002-04:00

Watched the documentary Why We Fight last night with Josh. Many thoughts that have previously passed through my head were pretty much realized in this movie.

The themes of the movie were nothing new to anyone who has been following media or politics or any other related subject.. basically anyone that hasn't had their head in the sand for the past 65 or so years. However, the part that really got to me was when US propaganda footage was shown in the movie and Josh said something to the effect of "wow, those were so obvious".

Yeah, they seem very obvious to us and at the time of their showing, these films were very obvious to the adults watching them. Those movies, however, were never meant for adults. I believe they were geared toward small children to watch before they caught the Mickey Mouse Double Feature.

To me the angles of the propaganda films scream "CHILDREN'S POINT OF VIEW!" They were all low angle movies that not only heroized the "brave men" but also gave children the feeling of "hey, we are on your level looking up at tall adults with you".

In his book, Feeling Like a Kid (which by the way is bound like a children's story book), Jerry Griswold comments on themes, feelings and phrases that connect with children. Why then can't a film/movie use these same themes to connect with children, especially if all it takes is moving the camera a few inches/feet this way or that way.

Propaganda was aimed at children because they were/are the next generation of citizen and most importantly soldier. The movies gave them an idealized character, like Superman, to look up to. And although children could never be the man of steal (no matter how much they tried) they could definitely become a brave, proud soldier.

What does modern TV say? We are not so much told to idolize or heroize TV/Movie characters. There are boys and girls that idolize terrible role models from TV but thats really not media's main objective. Modern television is made to pacify us. Things like reality TV is made to shock us to the point of not caring about truly shocking things. It is currently more important to know who got voted off American Idol or who got bad mouthed on the Hills than to know what our foreign policy is. I mean, we are just talking about our safety.

There was a great line in the movie last night. I cannot quote is verbatim (or maybe I can) but the gist of it was this:

We are a nation that suffers from Amnesia, forgetting what happened last week every time a Monday rolls around.

Holy Scripture, Fairy Tales and the Boogy Man

2008-05-26T17:18:00.003-04:00

I have linked my love of dissecting novels/literature with my 12 years of Hebrew school and bible study.

Now all I have to do is instill to my audience the concept of what role Rashi, Rambam and Ramban play in the reading and understanding of holy scripture and how that relates to my version of classic children's literature.

My plan of attack (a year from now) is to focus very little (if at all) on my past work and instead speak of my past experiences and my knowledge and relationship to thinks like religion and Kabbalah (no Demi More required or needed, thank you!)

On the other hand I have to really watch out for drawing out my presentation into a multi-hour event. Too much info can be damning, too little info can confuse people even more.

At least I still have a year (or at the very least 10ish months, to smooth things out and make everything come together.

Fairy Tales Beware!

Getting Over Science and Joining the World of Art

2008-04-30T02:40:00.003-04:00

Having a science background, it is quite hard to delve into the subjective world of art.

In science you have a hypothesis, a method of gathering data, data analysis and then a confirmation (or not) of your hypothesis that you were testing. Data, research and scientific measures are combined to come up with a sound, objective judgement of the thoughts/theories you may have.

Art is completely different. Of course there is research involved, however, unless you are writing a history paper, you don't have to rely on previous facts and findings. If you want to create a body of work with a water theme, you can as long as you can justify it in your artist statement.

My issues are with convincing artist statements. I always feel like I need to be working with formulas and equations that somehow, along the way, will prove that what I am doing is sound based on data XY&Z.

Today I was told (in an encouraging way) that I should tie in my own past experiences and history to my work to make it more reliable/believable. I think I am having a hard time accepting the need to expose myself in such a way that makes me so vulnerable.

I guess if I am to become an "artist" these things need to be worked out as well.

PS... its 3am and some of this may not exactly read/sound like it makes any sense.

A Pledge

2008-04-27T00:40:00.001-04:00

My Promise to myself is to start taking and showing more of my work.

The problem is making interesting work deserving of a show.

One thing at a time I suppose.

Artists Are SICK!

2008-04-11T00:49:00.002-04:00

Word on the net is that a Costa Rican artist found a starving dog on the street, brought the dog into his exhibition gallery, tied the starving thing up and then within the span of the say let the dog die due to lack of food and water... all in the name of art.

I have issues with this. Lots of issues. The cruelty of the actual "artist" not withstanding my other big issue is this: Why did no one in the gallery do something about the dog being tied up and starving before the poor creature died? Are we so afraid of "touching" and "interacting" with art that we ignore a poor dog's whimpers for help? Are we so apt to believe and listen to the instructions of people with "power" or "authority" that we ignore our own common sense?

The phrase "Join Us in Non-Conformity" really comes to mind.

Uh! Human kind is really obnoxious!

That is all!

PS. Read about the story here... http://petloverstips.com/ForTheLoveoftheDog/news-updates/a-dead-dog-as-art-petition

Writers Block

2008-03-31T15:43:00.002-04:00

Writer's block is ruining my life! I cannot seem to get my production on its way. I feel that my inability to visualize the next step of my creation is limiting my ability to speak about the project as a whole. The feed back that I am getting is frustrating as well because I feel that it deters me from my vision. I know that these recommendations come from a good place but at this point they are more damaging than helping. (Does that sound as bad as it reads?)

Anyway, here is where I am at...

1. 3 heads are created and are close to being ready for the oven.
2. A skeleton is in its beginning stage of creation... still wobbly and needs more definition. If this one goes well then the rest of them SHOULD be a breeze to put together (although I've said that before and disaster followed).
3. The script/shot list still needs lots of work. (LOTS OF WORK)
4. Set needs to be erected but due to the fact that is very minimalistic that shouldn't take too long
5. Supporting limbs (hands, feet, etc) need to be created and put through the oven.

Let see how much I can get done in the next 2 weeks (hopefully a lot)!

My Journey with Photographs

2008-01-13T02:36:00.001-05:00

Haven't updated in a while.

Hope everyone had a great time ushering in the New Year. I was somewhere over the Atlantic when the big 2008 happened.

Here are some pictures from my trip.

Enjoy your break!

See you in the end of January.

Another One Bites the Dust

2007-12-14T23:16:00.000-05:00

Another semester is over.

Thanks to all that have shared their work (and frustrations) throughout the semester. It has been pretty interesting watching everyone's work develop.

Also, a special thanks to Kris for a very informative and practical "talk". Its really got me thinking about my future work and development of said work. Plus, its funny to be lobbed together in a group with film people while myself having very little film experience. So thanks to the film "crew" for the support and kind ear...

On that note I shall delve back into my online test and bid everyone a fond adieu. I will try to keep you all updated on my travels.

-RG

Motivation... what motivation?

2007-11-26T01:32:00.001-05:00

Not motivated to do anything, including spell.

Some adults are more mature than their bratty and spoiled parents.

Trying to see the end in sight.

Hope everyone is doing well after their turkey comas... or turkey alternative comas.

I Like this Artist

2007-11-05T20:15:00.000-05:00

As I was searching for websites that I might like or might inspire me to model mine after, I noticed an artist that I REALLY REALLY like; Lindsay Page...

I don't particularly like her website lay out but I thought you may enjoy viewing her work...

http://lindsaypage.com/home.html

you can also click the title of this blog post to get directly to Lindsay Page's website... enjoy....

A Memento Mori

2007-11-03T00:59:00.000-04:00

Here is a Memento Mori of my Electric Blue African Chiclid who died unexpectedly...

No idea how many people have one of their fish... (cue tear now)

Halloween at the ViZ

2007-11-03T00:23:00.000-04:00

This is how we do it at the ViZ (VSW) on Halloween.

Photos Featuring

Kris Merola as herself.

Marta Filipek as Baba Yagga

Guest Staring Dave F and Matt M.

Enjoy!

Who the Fuck is Bela Lugosi?

2007-10-31T02:03:00.000-04:00

Who indeed...

Tonight I had the pleasure to see "30 Days of Night" with Marta and Josh. Lets just say that its not a cinematic masterpiece. The vampires had a bad case of "lets see what happens when we take liberties with the Photoshop Liquify Tool". Meh!

At one point in the movie, one of the human characters cracks a joke which mentions Bela Lugosi. Naturally, Marta, Josh and I start to cackle like a bunch of hyenas. Out of the entire theater we were the only ones laughing. "Perhaps it wasn't that funny," I thought to myself. Before those words had a chance to dissipate from my mind, I heard the following conversation from the folks sitting behind us:

"Who the FUCK is Bela Lugosi?"

"I dunno what the Fuck that is."

I couldn't believe my ears... How can you call yourself a vampire fan and not know who Bela is. AHHH! If this isn't a cry for medial literacy, I don't know what is.

I feel like there should be an "International Get to Know Your Obscure, Once Famous, Silver Screen Stars and Starlets Day",

And now some pictures of the handsom Bela Lugosi...

My Goals Don't Mean a Thing

2007-10-30T20:43:00.000-04:00

So, my goal for next crit is 700 frames at the very least. At the same time I have to figure out how to put everything together on Final Cut to make it look a little better.

I think I now have a better grasp of what I can and cannot (should not) do on sand. Also, I have to really work on the lighting situation.

Here's to hoping...

GAHHHH!!!! DUHHHHHHH!!!!

2007-10-24T03:21:00.000-04:00

GAHHH!!!!

More money has been spent on the clay animation. MORE MONEY!!

I have run into one problem after another with this damn thing but by hook or by crook I am going to have at least 250 framses ready and done with by Tuesday.

I am still trying to figure out what the hey happened to the week off we were supposed to have. I was really counting on it to catch up on work but I found myself preparing for one presentation, a mid-term exam, some back logged commisioned work and other non-claymation related CRAP!

So, its time to dive into work, finish up and get ready for the insanity.

Something New

2007-10-19T12:10:00.000-04:00

I am pretty impressed with this 17 year old.

http://www.joeyl.com/#

I Cannot Tell a Lie

2007-10-15T12:30:00.000-04:00

So I have something to admit. I am about 2 weeks behind on my clay animation and I cannot seem to get started. I was hoping this week off was going to be a good starting point but I find myself increasingly scattered in the wind (que Kansas).

I am hoping that by Thursday, at the latest I will have the first 500 frames done.

Here's to ambition!

My Universe

2007-10-07T03:36:00.001-04:00

Behold, I have created a universe out of straw, grass and metal parts.

The set is mostly complete minus the magic tree and more sand... lots more sand. I will post pics of the finished product soon... or you could always come in and see it for yourself, but please don't bump the table because its not sturdy yet (bad design on my part).

Now, anyone know anything about which plants balance water Nitrite and Nitrate levels?

In Case You Missed It

2007-10-05T02:51:00.000-04:00

Here is my evil creation. He taught me a lot about weight proportions and what not to do with scotch tape and clay.

Unfortunately his armature doesn't move. Basically he is a glorified paper weight.

Enjoy!

Don't Mind the Smell

2007-10-02T23:53:00.001-04:00

My table for my claymation is assembled. Its a bit wobbly but nothing that cannot be fixed. Dimensions are 45inches high and a 4'x4' surface area. The hardest thing to find for it (and turning out to be most expensive) are sheets of styrofoam.

I have also found a solution to my armature construction issue. The key turns out to be wooden dowels. HAHA! Take that brass tubing. So the clay characters are coming along slowly. I expect to have the whole set complete for mid-semester crits. I also think that a few characters will be ready for showing as well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Oh, the smell is a result of my use of potpouri for some of the set design. Its a bit overwhelming, especially for such a small room and I hope the smell will diminish before people take a tour at mid-semester. For now though, don't be surprised to smell the distinctive aroma of clean linen as you pass by the media center.

Good luck to all and see you at mid crits!

2007-10-01T02:05:00.000-04:00

Dear Kris,

Please forward this to Mike of the first years.... (i don't know his last name... he has glasses) ... I think this has something to do with what he is doing for film/video class...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSodM4pLGIs

Its a great short called Manipulation

Sounds, Movement and an Overload of Video Clips

2007-09-29T19:57:00.000-04:00

These two movies are the same. The only difference is that they appear on 2 different sites and the fact that the music has been changed.

The first version has a techno musical numer attached to it. It reminds me a lot of the game MORTAL KOMBAT.

The second version has music by a band I came to know (and love) thanks to this video. The music is performed by Kaizer's Orchestra. The musical piece moves with the speed of the animation, enhancing it the whole experience; it adds to the irony.

I personally LOVE the second version of animation/music combo. I think partly its due to the fact that the music is not popularized and you don't link it in your mind to other projects (or games).

Techno Version 1 brought to you by atomfilms.com

AtomFilms.com: Funny Videos | Funny Cartoons | Comedy Central

Orchestra Version 2 brought to you by albinoblacksheep.com

War from Albino Blacksheep

And for your general viewing pleasures, the following:

Simple, Yet Satisfying:

AtomFilms.com: Funny Videos | Funny Cartoons | Comedy Central

To be Hand 'o god is to Err?

AtomFilms.com: Funny Videos | Funny Cartoons | Comedy Central

An Award Winning Clip... Must See

AtomFilms.com: Funny Videos | Funny Cartoons | Comedy Central

Frustrated

2007-09-24T03:09:00.000-04:00

It is extreamly hard to find basic equiment for clay animation in the Rochester area. I have rigged things together in an effort to move on with creating my characters.

Also, I am still waiting on my order of 2 blocks of super duper awesome clay. This means that my initial character is going to be made of all black clay. I am not sure what that will mean for the details but I guess I have about a week or so after the mini crit with Jay, to rectify the problem.

I will have pics of my SLOW progress.

Oh! My table is still in pieces and I hope that tomorrow (actually that will be later today) I can come in and put it all together and start creating the stage for my little evil creation.

:D

Because I Bloody Can

2007-09-19T03:06:00.000-04:00

Gaaaarrrr.... Arrrggggg.... Here be pictures from the first wee 'ours of "International Talk Like a Pirate" Day.

YO-HO!

Not Everything on Youtube is Garbage

2007-09-17T04:50:00.000-04:00

Came across this on YouTube. According to their myspace page, this cartoon was made by a talented, female, twin sister, duo. Took them a year to hand draw and complete. Looks great!

Not a real big surprise that their inspiration is my all time favorite, Mr. TIM BURTON!

Also found this creepy little re-mix of Strawberry Fields... lots to think about... enjoy! (I don't really know much about the artist... yet).

YAR! Ye Scurvy Knaves

2007-09-17T03:47:00.000-04:00

Ahoy! me hearties, September 19 be "International Talk Like a Pirate" Day.

So let out a hefty Y'AAAAARRRRR and GAAAARRR and YO-HO-HO, all ye wenches and buccaneers, and salute the good ol' Jolly Roger. Show 'em Landlubbers why they need be fearin' us e'or lovin' PIRATES!

Hide and Seek

2007-09-16T03:49:00.000-04:00

Finding anything on clay animation in the book stores is like searching for a needle in a hay stack. Most of the book on polymer clay are for making beads and jewelry. Nothing on creating moving little things.

Luckily I did find what is turning out to be a great $40 investment that I found in the computer programing section.

Stop Motion by Susannah Shaw

It has very practical step by step advise. Anything from types of film available (like Super 8, 16mm, etc) to companies that sell equipment/supplies (although many places don't have websites) and even a section on film festivals around the world.

SHINY!

Because I work at Night...

2007-09-16T00:21:00.000-04:00

... i looked online for quotes about pessimism. Enjoy!

Antonio Gramsci:
“I'm a pessimist because of intelligence, but an optimist because of will”

G. B. Stern:
“Both optimists and pessimists contribute to our society. The optimist invents the airplane and the pessimist the parachute.”

Thomas Hardy:
“Pessimism is, in brief, playing the sure game. You cannot lose at it; you may gain. It is the only view of life in which you can never be disappointed. Having reckoned what to do in the worst possible circumstances, when better arise, as they may, life becomes child's play.”

George F. Will:
“Pessimism is as American as apple pie-frozen apple pie with a slice of processed cheese.”

Roberto Rossellini:
I am not a pessimist; to perceive evil where it exists is, in my opinion, a form of optimism.

Don Marquis:
A pessimist is a person who has had to listen to too many optimists.

Jonathan Swift:
"Happiness is the perpetual possession of being well deceived."

Janeane Garofalo:
I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half- empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth.

And My Favorite One of All:

Mark Twain:
“The man who is a pessimist before forty-eight knows too much; if he is an optimist after it he knows too little”

Man of a Mann

2007-09-15T01:30:00.000-04:00

I would just like to make it very public that Matt M. is the greatest power tool wielding person ever!

Thank you for all your help in the editing suite. You truly are "the mann"

GAH! This Funeral is Killing Me...

2007-09-13T11:12:00.000-04:00

Over the summer I started with an idea for a documentary about these two sisters. One of them was dying from cancer.

Well, I am sad to say that Linda passed away a week ago.

Her sisters are having a memorial in her memory this Saturday and have requested a DVD of the documentary.

The thing is, that i didn't really have that much footage. Linda had throat cancer and had a very hard time talking and filming was kept to a minimum. I rather doubt I have enough info for a documentary. However, I told the sister that I will sit down and look over the footage and try to put something together.

I am always nervous about showing work that involves dead people that were recently alive.

I have about a day to do this.

PS... Rest in Peace Linda, you will be very missed.

One Step Closer to World Domination

2007-09-12T00:34:00.001-04:00

Spent the night demolishing old editing suite. A piece of stubborn partical board outsmarted me. Coming back tomorrow with more artilary.

Got some great feedback from KM.

I think I will be asking a very talented 13year old to write music for me.

Goals for next two weeks:

1. Clear out old editing suite and make it PERTY.
2. Design table to be used as my amazing set
3. Do minor welding work for custom camera stand
4. Create finalized screen play
5. Start detailed story board
6. Find lights for the claymation room (or it will be a very long and dark production)
7. Make detailed character drawings
8. Create armature (one of what will be many)
9. Find large amounts of new clay to mes with
10. Try not to burn the house down

Lets see how far I get...

NO MORE INSPIRATIONS!!!

2007-09-11T03:45:00.000-04:00

Just watched the Mirror Mask (thanks Dave). It was amazing eye candy and UBER inspiring, perhaps a bit too inspiring. I dunno if I like the amount of inspiration I am now faced with.

The story line (although a bit slow at times) is very similar to Alice in Wonderland (which I enjoy) but the truly remarkable imagery is really what spoke to me. The movie also made me realize that the sky is the limit for the type of characters I can create and I am mostly limited by my imagination (and sculpting skill... or lack there of).

Anyway, I highly recommend Mirror Mask (PG rating is great for the whole family). If nothing else, watch it for the amazing visual effects.

And now time for bed...

Clay Makes It Better

2007-09-11T03:04:00.000-04:00

Here are the little test characters I've been working on. They are pretty rough but I am trying to get the general idea and feel for the medium and what can be done with it.

Problems I've run into include (but are not limited to):

* Clay that is very soft and practically melts in the hand
* Clay with dyes that bleed
* Humidity effecting the stability of clay
* Building creatures without armatures (more on armatures later)
* Due to softness of clay, shaping, smoothing and refining creatures, is near to imposible
* Lack of proper supplies in the Rocheter area

Anyway, here are the creatures...

* The little crow was the first creature I made and by far the easiest. Notice the low quality in clay and the bleeding dye in the eyes.
* The rabbit's ears are too heavy and constantly fall and get bent out of shape due to humidity.
* The jester's face is made of better clay however, the size and lack of proper tools makes it hard to refine the features.
* The little monster also suffers from cheap clay syndrome and dye bleeding.

Inspired

2007-09-09T04:54:00.000-04:00

In my endless search for clues and knowledge of anything to do with Polymer clay and clay animation, I somehow found myself viewing the following website and being completely blown away by the AMAZING work of this artist.

pixiwillow.com
If I can be 1/1000 as good as Michelle Bradshaw I'd be super happy.
Well, practice makes perfect.

Now I need $100 to invest in clay.

A sense of myself...

2007-09-08T04:30:00.000-04:00

Is it better to be true to oneself and seem childish or seem mature while denying your own self?

... I'll sleep on it.

“It is better to be hated for who you are, than to be loved for someone you are not.”

2007-09-06T12:17:00.000-04:00

A bit ago, I had 2 people come up to me and tell me that they hate me... they don't really know me but they express a strong emotion such as hate. I suppose this post is my response to that.

"We hate some persons because we do not know them; and will not know them because we hate them." ~Charles Caleb Colton

"If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us." ~Herman Hesse

HATE is a strong emotion:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hate

http://www.tolerance.org/10_ways/index.html

http://www.tolerance.org/campus/index.jsp

http://thinkexist.com/quotations/hate/

http://www.adl.org/main_Extremism/hate_music_in_the_21st_century.htm

http://www.worldpress.org/Americas/1997.cfm

Lectures and Life

2007-08-31T05:48:00.000-04:00

Lectures are great, but being inspired is even better!

the Devil and Daniel Johnston... SPOILER

2007-07-22T03:25:00.000-04:00

I am so glad I decided to watch this movie. However, at the end I was filled with sadness. Then I watched the deleted scene of him reuniting with his long lost love and I was then completely depressed.

Throughout this movie, you see this vibrant, brilliant person, battling with more and more of his demons. Gradually you see him losing his mind and a piece of himself. I was mortified to watch this energetic kid turn more and more into an old, half spent adult. Its not to say that he isn't still brilliant and a wonderful artist. He is. It just looks as if his body is weathering from all the demons in his head.

What really got me is during the movie everyone keeps saying how great it was that he was able not to attain his dream girl and thats what made his music and art so brilliant and that his dream girl wasn't "really" that important in his heart. I think all that is wrong. As soon as he saw her after 26 years, all he could do is stare at her and ask her if she would marry him and tell her that he won't let her go.

Would he have made all that music if he had gotten his wish 26 years ago to be with his dream girl? Probably not. But how can we say that thats for the better. Thats a totally selfish thing to say.

While watching the movie and seeing Daniel Johnston as the older Daniel Johnston, I couldn't help but think that he physically looks a lot like my dad. It also got me to think of what it would be like for us and for my dad if my dad didn't suffer from all his diseases. What did the world and I miss out on from my dad being the way he is? I think that made me incredibly sad as well.

I wish I could sing and play an instrument. I am so inspired to sing some of Johnston's songs, especially the one that they play at the end of the movie.

This movie was amazing and will stay in my mind for a very long time!

*** ALSO***

It is incredible how much time and energy this person spent on documenting his own life. He essentially wrote his own documentary and someone else added a few things and put it all together. This inspires me to leave more traces of myself and my life behind.

the 12 step program...

2007-07-13T04:50:00.000-04:00

step one...

A> Morning Pages... every morning, for better or worse.

B> Artist Time... at least 2 hours a week

C> Find the Monsters of Your Past... remember them and confront them.

D> Affirmations... screw what the censors say!

E>Old Champions... at least 3

F> Letter to self

G> Avenge yourself, tell the Monsters what you think of them now.

H> Take your artist for a walk...

I start my morning pages in 10+ hours... I hope I can keep up with that for 7 days... till Thursday.

The hardest part will be spending time and walking with my artist, I need to get properly motivated!

"Every blade of grass has its Angel that bends over it and whispers, "Grow, grow."
-Talmud

Dear Blogger

2007-07-13T04:18:00.000-04:00

I have been neglecting you as of late. I assume that will change soon...

I have been reading a sort of self help book, the Artist's Way, by Julia Cameron and I believe that I have found my second bible.

If anyone knows me I am not at all emotionally connected to my religion. I've had issues with religion all my life. It was not so much the lack of believing but the lack of reason to believe. My theory was always to do just enough to be on the safe side; get cool points for trying.

Perhaps the problem with me and religion has always lied in my inability to fit in. After a while it turned to an in-desire to fit in. I rather be alone than amid a group of like minded individuals. I rarely feel pride in anything that involves group effort and have never really been patriotic (although I have my loyalties). "If everyone else is doing it then what is the point," I always wondered? Somewhere along the line religion got placed into a category of group projects I didn't belong to.

However, with Cameron's book I feel that perhaps religion (or at least the interpretation of it that I chose to follow) can have a place in my life and in my art. The gist of the book can probably be summed up with one poignant quote:

"We are, ourselves, creations. And we, in turn, are meant to continue creativity by being creative ourselves."

Now, I must make it clear that I am in no way preaching religion or the power of Moses, Jesus Christ, Alah, (or any other recognizable religious figure ) to any reader (if any exist). I am simply saying that for me, perhaps there is something in this book that may help me gain a deeper understanding of myself and my art.

This book has a 12 week, 12 step program to creative rediscovery, which may be what I have been searching for in the Masters Program at VSW but not finding. Maybe this book is that 15% that I need to push me past the hurdles that I have faced within my art work. That 15% may be whats standing between me and my confidence as an artist and as a human being.

Who knows, this may be the last entry before a life altering event.

So here's to trying new things and to new beginnings....

... see you on the other side...

-Rona G

Book Comparison: History of Photography

2007-03-09T06:19:00.000-05:00

Initially I started out with comparing two books, Hirsch’s, Seizing the Light and Taschen’s, A History of Photography. Although the writing styles are different, as are the placement of images within chapters, I felt that each book heavily relied on the George Eastman collection for their image sources and history. In the spirit of fair representation and research I chose a third book, Szarkowski's, Photography Until Now.

Taschen’s A History of Photography reads more like a catalog of the George Eastman collection than a collection of photographic history and information. With that being said, it would be incorrect to think that Taschen’s work is somehow less important. On the contrary, the book is a superb source for visual information. Although many of the images that appear in Taschen also appear in Hirsch, Taschen is very distinguishable in two important ways. First is that he features a large number of images of minorities and women. There are many images in the book that most people have either never seen before or have seen them very seldom anywhere else. The amount of images crammed into the little book is impressive. Second and perhaps the most interesting fact is that Taschen does not have the “holy grail” of images. The first photograph ever made is not in the George Eastman collection and therefore does not appear in Taschen’s book. What Taschen does offer instead is a picture of the “king” of photography himself, George Eastman.

What impressed me about Robert Hirsch’s book is the way he placed captions for images that were used throughout the book. Unlike many photo history books that place an image on the page as reference for the artist, Hirsch combines many of the images he uses with descriptive text, giving more of a context to an image other than just the dimensions, process by which it was made, year and name of its creator. The caption text is effective because it gives the reader a glimpse of the context in which to place the images, letting the reader relate the image with things like the historic events or places of origin. Effectively, the book works in a multi layered fashion, like two books in one. One layer tells about the general history of photography and the second layer deals more intimately with each image and the thoughts that went into making that image.

Szarkowski's, Photography Until Now, caught my eye for one reason. Szarkowski dedicates more space in the book for images. Instead of looking at an image that’s about thumbnail size, Szarkowski’s images are bigger (although not actual size). There are entire pages that contain only images, allowing the photographs to live by themselves without having the text infringe upon their freedom. It’s shocking that more authors or photo history books are not as generous to their images. After all, a history of photography should acknowledge the power of the image to speak for itself without having cumbersome words taking away from the visual language and glory.

The comparison inspired me to look deeper into how photo art historians use images to accompany their text. It is interesting to see what images each author chooses to include and exclude from their book because that dictates how the history of photographic art is written, read, studied and viewed in the future. The power of images is undeniable.

Artist Statement for Final Project

2006-12-05T16:21:00.000-05:00

I have seen and read things that I doubt I’d ever want to see and read again. I don’t consider myself a sensitive person by any means, but this project really got to me. It made me realize how little value we have for the dead, which may just be a way for us to cope with our own mortality.

The written part of the project is a series of 5.5x 8inch pages that make up an easy reference guide to things you may never have known about death. It’s meant to read like a novelty book you’d find at Spencer or Hottopic. The reason I didn’t bind it or put a cover on it is because I did not feel like I was writing a book. Beside, I cannot start and finish a book that would do Death justice in one semester. I didn’t include images or graphics because my video piece was graphic enough.

The images I picked out for the video could have very easily come out of some book. However, to prove that we are a culture saturated in images of death, I decided to get on the internet and pick out images. It wasn’t hard at all to find what I was looking for. The music in the video is from my music library.

Finally, the video piece is not on You Tube because all images and sounds are copyright materials.

Research Continues

2006-11-16T12:55:00.000-05:00

So, I was looking at the works of J. Witkin and I must say he really gets under my skin. Although his images are well composed I can't really look at them and not cringe. I consider myself pretty open minded when it comes to most things, but I guess when it comes to using the dead for personal monetary gain, I get a little sick to my stomach.

The images that really got to me were the ones where Witkin used dead babies. In addition to that, I read about how Witkin sets up these sets of the dead. How he pulls dead babies out of drawers in morgues. Something about that just seems very wrong to me.

Heavy Metal and Death in Art

2006-11-01T22:27:00.000-05:00

Its been a while since my last post. So i figure i'd update everyone on my progress...

I've been making a decision as to how i want to approach this project. Through readings and research i decided to focus on popular culture, especially the heavy metal movement.

In my search to find articles online, i discovered a great book that explores the cultural sociology of the heavy metal movement.

The following is a link to the book. Its an easy read and I feel it does justice to the genre. So if you are interested, check it out.

http://books.google.com/books?id=D6tGaphXVlEC&pg=PA1&lpg=PP9&dq=positive+effects+of+heavy+metal+music&psp=9&sig=JJKAknXWtHygbmqA6uHlCVuxpLc

I have also started work on the audio-visual part of the project. I am going to include some work by Cannibal Corpse, Kreator, Obituary and Kitty. I am still looking for some compeling images and will probably look into Kutna Hora Bone Church in the Czech Republic as well as the works of Witkin.

This Project is Going to be the Death of Me

2006-09-28T00:00:00.000-04:00

I have been reading and researching articles about death, art and anything having to do with the two.

I have not yet decided what angle I am going to follow in this project. I was thinking about making a timeline of human history and run it parallel to human use of death in art. The project will be a written one. It may consist of a book format that is accompanied by an audio-visual CD that combines images and sounds together.

The research includes psychology journals, anthropology journals and art journals. Although they are all interesting, nothing has really jumped out at me so far.

I looked into the works of Bill Viola which are interesting and would probably be great for the audio visual part of the project. The audio visual will also include musical works by Macabre, Cannibal Corpse, Cremaster and visual works by Jeol Peter Witkin, Marilyn Manson, and movie makers such as George A. Romero.

Death and Dying in the Arts

2006-09-21T11:57:00.000-04:00

I have to be honest and apologetic, I really haven't had time to sit down and start writing and researching anything of substance in regards to the final project for the Thursday class. I've searched the web, read a few more myths and tales of death and dying but nothing super important to the project.

The following website caught my eye. It’s an easy read and touches on a few issues that I want to mention in my research project; human fear of the unknown, human experience, etc.

(NOTE:I Published the links 4 or 5 times but it won't link them on blogger so just copy and past them if you'd like to view them. Sorry about that... blame blogger :D)

http://http://www.lamortdanslart.com/main.htm

http://http://death.monstrous.com/art_and_death.htm

http://http://library.thinkquest.org/16665/frame2.htm

I am considering looking at popular culture and fascination with serial killers (many shock rockers take on stage names that are versions of serial killer names).

Books and novels (such as the Canterbury Tales, Frankenstein), mythology, poetry and everything else that is the macabre will be researched and discussed. Movies and TV shows (like Seven, Dracula, Frankenstein and Mummies Alive, CSI) will be discussed as part of the research. Also, less known cultures (Indonesia, South American, and African) art, mythology and religious practices are going to be mentioned in the project.

I am still debating if I should add music to a list of things I want to include in my research project. Music would include Classical, Opera, Shock Rock, Death Metal and perhaps a few other genres.

Those are the ideas/subjects that I'm working on... in my spare time.

Art and the Age of Death in Art Culture

2006-09-13T00:35:00.000-04:00

Wherever I am, the macabre seems to follow. However, it’s not due to any underlying desire to scare or shock anyone. I don’t have homicidal or suicidal tendencies nor do I have adoration for necrophilia. As far as I am told, I am a well adjusted individual. My fascination (and dread) with death and the dead started when I was four or five. It was the same day that I discovered that my preconceptions of life after old age and “re-youth” didn’t really exist and that people actually died. Having never been to a funeral at that age, it was hard to imagine what death and dying was all about.

My project for the semester will delve into the use of death and the dead in art culture. I will attempt to look into different cultures and the way they view and treat their dead. My own culture and beliefs about death that I grew up with will be incorporated in my research.

If anyone has any knowledge of articles and/or books that I should look into, please let me know.

Art and Politics; My Experience

2006-09-04T17:11:00.000-04:00

As a refugee from Eastern Europe, I found in the past, that keeping my opinions to myself, was the best policy. It was never due to ignorance or apathy but a desire not to completely ostracize myself from my family, friends and community.

My art work (which is photo oriented) has been largely based on experimental processes. The ultimate goal was to turn photography into something more than a two dimensional art form. I wanted to find a way to make it more sculptural and three dimensional. The only way I thought I could accomplish that was to experiment with various materials, methods and applications. There was never much room to incorporate politics.

Political works that move me are the works of Lewis Wickes Hines and his documentation on life in the slums, Dorothea Lange and her images of the Great Depression and Arthur Fellig (Weegee) and his dedicated work in capturing “true reality” on film. In the future I hope to include more of my own views on politics, my previous experience as a refugee and the works by my favorite artists, into my photography.

This is a test

2006-09-03T11:12:00.000-04:00

this is only a test