I am so glad I decided to watch this movie. However, at the end I was filled with sadness. Then I watched the deleted scene of him reuniting with his long lost love and I was then completely depressed.
Throughout this movie, you see this vibrant, brilliant person, battling with more and more of his demons. Gradually you see him losing his mind and a piece of himself. I was mortified to watch this energetic kid turn more and more into an old, half spent adult. Its not to say that he isn't still brilliant and a wonderful artist. He is. It just looks as if his body is weathering from all the demons in his head.
What really got me is during the movie everyone keeps saying how great it was that he was able not to attain his dream girl and thats what made his music and art so brilliant and that his dream girl wasn't "really" that important in his heart. I think all that is wrong. As soon as he saw her after 26 years, all he could do is stare at her and ask her if she would marry him and tell her that he won't let her go.
Would he have made all that music if he had gotten his wish 26 years ago to be with his dream girl? Probably not. But how can we say that thats for the better. Thats a totally selfish thing to say.
While watching the movie and seeing Daniel Johnston as the older Daniel Johnston, I couldn't help but think that he physically looks a lot like my dad. It also got me to think of what it would be like for us and for my dad if my dad didn't suffer from all his diseases. What did the world and I miss out on from my dad being the way he is? I think that made me incredibly sad as well.
I wish I could sing and play an instrument. I am so inspired to sing some of Johnston's songs, especially the one that they play at the end of the movie.
This movie was amazing and will stay in my mind for a very long time!
*** ALSO***
It is incredible how much time and energy this person spent on documenting his own life. He essentially wrote his own documentary and someone else added a few things and put it all together. This inspires me to leave more traces of myself and my life behind.
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