A Seriously Delayed Un-update

Its been a while since I've done anything substantial in my world of art making. Quite honestly, between the thesis project and my horrible job job, my photographic freethinking creativity has been somewhat drained. I pick up my camera and dread what I may, or may not photograph.

Recently I had a conversation with someone new to photography about the practice. He asked me how one becomes a photographer. The best answer I could come up with is this: Everyone has the ability to look at the world and find something beautiful/memorable/meaningful. They associate the experience before them with an emotion or a sentimental point in time so they pick up their camera and snap a picture and when it comes out they look at it and are disappointed that the sunset does not look as impressive as they remember in their head. Obviously the camera is blamed for the lack of sentimental image reproduction. Cameras are just there as a tool. Like a hammer, cameras by themselves, are objects. What a photographer does is uses the camera tool as a way to elicit emotional and mental responses.

I think what has happened to me, is that I, at this point, am no longer able to use the camera as an effective tool for the purpose of story telling. I am using it to create photographic visions for other people's ideas and not so much my own. I am craving the free flow of thought as expressed through my favorite medium, but at the moment it does not come.

What I am attempting instead, is a body of Assemblage works that closely tie in with my recent experiences in life (mainly the dating scene). I am hoping to come up with 24-36 pieces by the end of the year and I hope that they inspire someone's imagination.

So, in conclusion, I am alive, I am thinking about art and I am longing for the day I can once again freely and confidently express myself through photography. In the meanwhile, I am keeping busy.