This means nothing at all...

People have been coming up to me remarking on the hair change. I find it interesting that women always ask me how other people (especially a significant other) have been reacting to my hair. Men, on the other hand, mostly ask me how I feel with short hair.

Are we culturally programed as women, to directly relate our own looks to how others will react? Women are stereotypically known to be the ones that take hours in the bathroom. We own a lot of shoes, spend hours agonizing about what we are going to wear, constantly obsess with being objects of made-up perfection.

Men, seemingly, just throw things on. Maybe put a handful of product in their hair, slip on one of the 5-6 pairs of shoes and race out the door.

I've known this to be the case for a while. Its not that I am suddenly coming into this knowledge. Although I don't normally wear make-up (besides the rare occasional and random wig and eyelash day), I have been known to change my outfit at least a half dozen times before frantically running out the door. The short hair isn't exactly alleviating my need to make sure that I am not a complete embarrassment when I walk out into public. I wonder though, if its all necessary.

What I noticed most about the whole experience, is that I can no longer hide behind my hair. My hair isn't a way for me to hide my face. Every inch of my head is noticed. My ears, my nose, my random beauty marks and moles; all public parts now.

In a sense, this hair is a way for me to deal with my insecurities. It makes me come to terms with my big cheeks, cartoonishly round head, short neck and giant lips. And I'm ok with that.